My journey since SBWCC

I have had a good, lovely, and fun journey since getting out. Right after I got home I took some time to thoroughly clean my house and bring it back to order after having been gone for 8 months. Then about a couple weeks after I got home I put in notice that I was going to move, so it was looking for new places to live, which was fun a little, but I didn’t accomplish much. No one wants to rent to a felon! On a whim I decided to run out to Meridian to look at some apartments managed by my same property management company. I liked them, despite the fact that they were way the heck out in Meridian. I have a car and money for gas, so I decided to move there. And since I was with the same property management company, I didn’t need to fill out an application; instead I was instantly approved. So then began the process of packing and cleaning. After I loved to my new home, with which I am SUPER PLEASED and GRATEFUL to be living here, I got in touch with the LDS church missionaries, and they began coming to my house. I’ve attended church there, have been diligently studying their faith, and have decided that I would like to get baptized into their church. That will take place in September, hopefully right before my 42nd birthday. Religion makes me happy and I love to study, so I’m happy spending my days doing that.
   I also decided that I would continue my higher education if I could find a reputable school that was accredited, online, and ideally, free. Of course I didn’t think I’d actually find one, but I did, and I’m in the process of being approved. School starts in November, so hopefully I’ll be officially approved by then. I shall be studying for my bachelor’s degree in business administration. I’m happy and excited, and pray that everything works out.
   The best thing about being out is being with my family again, my son, my daughter, and my grandson. I hope soon for approval for contact with my husband, even if it’s only church and counseling and aa meetings. My daughter is pg and due in January, so we have that to look forward to. She just recently found out that the baby is a girl, and everyone is happy about that. I’ve also been helping her out in various ways since she had a seizure, and plan to continue that.
   One of the things that every enjoyable was my volunteering with ML. I spent quite a bit of time with her and her family and getting to know her, what she likes, what she doesn’t, and hearing stories of when she was younger, then a wife, then a mother, then a grandmother. She’s had a lot of adventures and had a whole gaggle of crazy kids. I’ve looked at pictures and seen paintings and held crocheted blankets that she’s made or had given to her. It was a joy to be able to help her.
   What I’m looking forward to is my baptism in the LDS church, going to school for my degree in business administration, and holding my new baby granddaughter.
   Are there any negatives? Well of course. My husband and I are not yet approved to live together, I spent a lot of money moving to Meridian, and i pay way too much for a car payment and insurance. Also, some of the women we were in prison with have relapsed and  are incarcerated again, and that makes me sad. Yet it strengthens my resolve to stay clean and sober.  Nothing is insurmountable,and my faith in God and humanity will assist me. I pray for all of us who are struggling. I am so very blessed in my life. I am so grateful.
  

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It’s been two years

It’s been 2 years since I wrote anything in this blog.  I’m a little iffy because I don’t know if this blog is public or not…I don’t think it is, but I’m going to write in it anyway.

I’m sitting at home, at my new apartment in Meridian, and listening to KTSY on the radio.  Of course, it’s a radio app, because I don’t actually own a radio!  Yes, that might be good to invest in one…maybe, we’ll see.

I’m an “investigator” into the Mormon Church.  The what?  Yes, you heard me right, the Mormon Church.  As a result, I’ve given up caffeine…and yes, I really have.  The rest of it I’m still working on, but it’s coming along, slowly but surely.  I REALLY like the Mormon faith.  It makes such sense to me, and the people are so NICE; they really live what they believe.  I had a good experience with them when I was in prison.  In fact, I have had a good experience with them since I looked them up in 2012, and toured the Mormon temple.  I had the Sister Missionaries come visit me then, and they have been awesome ever since.  I’ve had four sets of missionaries…one at Bannock, then no one at Onaga, then one set at Antietam before prison, and one set after prison…and now the Sister Missionaries here at Sawtooth.

(Gosh, I really can think of a lot to write about.)  I guess I’ll just have to piece it off, little by little.

Anyway, the LDS.  I prefer the “Mormons” but they themselves call themselves “LDS”. That’s okay, whatever.  I’m good with everything.  Adonis has been spending a lot of time with me this summer, since I got out of prison, and he has been my little Church companion.  He likes going to Church…in fact, I think he loves God, because he is the one that asked me about God and Church and Jesus and Mary and all that when I lived at Antietam.  Of course, Chelsey was all paranoid…”Oh, I don’t want to teach him about religion because….blah blah blah.”  Basically, my overdosing both the kids when they were small made them both anti-religion.  Boy, did that backfire in my face!  Well, nothing I can do about it…anyway, Adonis wanted to know about Jesus and God and Mary, etc., so I told him.  He loved it!  So now he is my Church buddy.  We have been to church twice, and he’ll be back before school, and he will come visit with me and we will go to Church again.  This time I’ll put him in the primary class, and he can be with other kids his age.  I think he’s really going to like it, but I am by no means shoving religion down his throat!  Not my kid and not my place!  I will, however, guide him as Chelsey will allow me to.  I think he likes it and needs some guidance, anyway.  I’m glad to have a little buddy go to Church with me.

I moved to Sawtooth Village Apartments in Meridian, Idaho.  Basically the corner of McMillan and Linder, in Meridian.  Whew, I’m way out here!  But there is a Fred Meyer close, and a Walmart, and a Walgreens across the street, and of course they are buidling more stuff, so there will be more shops around here.  I trust the Lord will put in exactly what I need to be here.  I’m LOVING it here, way out here.  The only problem is that it costs me a lot of money to go back and forth to Boise.  But I don’t have a lot of classes left to do…maybe one more month, but it will probably be longer than that.  I know I have some left in RPG, and I have to finish the mentoring and the testimony for MRT.  I am glad to do it, then I’ll be done and won’t worry about coming to Boise twice a week.  And I have my counseling sessions all set up in Meridian, and the only thing I need to do is get a doctor out here…don’t know where I’m going to do that, though.  I need to…I need someone to give me my crazy meds.  I guess I can go into Boise once every two weeks…although I don’t want to.  But I love my doctor, Dr. Mock!  But I guess I’ll do what I have to do, right? I hate having to go into Boise all the time.  So I’ll try to find someone closer.

I’m doing well with my probation.  It’s nice.  I hope my new PO doesn’t want me to go to AA.  I hate AA!  I have been going to the LDS 12 step meeting, which is nice.  I love those meetings!  They happen at 8 pm on Tuesday nights.  I will go there.  But AA? Not so much…

The thing with online journals, private or not, is that I don’t know who has access to them…so I don’t know who is reading what, and therefore I have some things I want to write, but I am afraid to…ugh.  Oh well, I guess I’ll just deal with it!

I have started fasting.  Oh, you’re not supposed to fast because you’re diabetic, you say! Well I say, whatever.  I can do whatever I want.  It’s fine.  I’m fine.  The fasting is fine. In fact, today is a fast day.  I’m fasting for the purpose of conquering my addictions.  All of them.  With the Lord is the Victory! Oh, and to get spiritual strength as well.  I need it!

Well, I think I’ll end this now and browse around the web.  I hardly get on the internet.  I want it available to me when I want it, but I don’t use it everyday.  Not on the computer, anyway.